Change

I have thought about the process of change a lot lately. We have had lots of change in our family in the last two years. As heart wrenching as lots of it has been... it is sometimes good to undergo. Like surgery, very painful, but without the hospital stay. I do not embrace change willingly. It has always meant upheaval for me. Last night I was reading a book to singing sensation and the author described the changes that had occurred to one of the main characters. It really gave me pause. So much of the change in my life of the last few years can't be seen by the naked eye. A quick outward glance and nothing seems awry. So to quote the author of Ingo, Helen Dunmore,

" You know how the sea grinds down stone into sand, nobody ever sees it, it happens so slowly... If you look casually at me and Mum and Conor now you might think we are the same people we were a year ago , except that we are older. But we are not the same people. We've changed where no one can see it. Inside our minds and our feelings. I didn't want us to change but I can't stop it."